I feel better. Less depressed. More alive. More aware of what I'm doing. I feel like the grey clouds have lifted (metaphorically - i live in Vancouver) and that I'm able to press on.
I suffer depression. I never know how low I'm likely to get when I feel depressed. A doctor told me once it's cyclical depression and that I'll fall into it and then lift out eventually. I don't know exactly how it works but it's mild in comparison to some other types. I guess it usually lasts a couple of weeks so I'm not even sure when hormones are taking their toll or when I'm about to swing low. It happens a couple of times a year.
This past month I have been absent from a lot of things including my blog. I have got the bare minimum done during bouts of energy and then let things slide along hoping to get through. I have not recorded my food log regularly but only every now and then. And while I haven't put weight on (thankfully) I have not lost. I have eaten poorly and scarfed chocolate but not the way i ever used to.
I believe my self control muscle is stronger than it used to be. Yay me.
This has been hard. But it will get better. And I will get smaller :)
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