Keep on keeping on

Hello all, it's been a little while.

I've had a fair bit happen in the past couple of weeks and I've been trying to keep on top of it. My boyfriend and I went on a mini trip to visit his parents who live 5 hours away. He and I been together for over a year and live together so it's kind of serious. This was my first time meeting them and it was great. They immigrated to Canada and don't speak a lot of english so it was definitely a challenge communicating. But they are wonderful and friendly and we really enjoyed ourselves. My diet went straight out the window, I tried to stay on top of it and controlled my portion sizes, however I gradually slipped down the slope and ate a lot of crap too.

I've been back a few days now and have had to work much harder to make myself look good and feel good at work. I am supposed to represent my companies brand and wear it proudly and it's made so much harder when I have been feeling so unattractive and depressed because of the amount of junk i ate.

Truthfully, it wasn't even comparable to the junk I've consumed in the past. Not too long ago I would have binged on a whole pizza, doritos as a side, and then followed that with a super rich chocolate icecream (preferably with bits of fudge brownie - served from the tub by the litre. All of that in one sitting on the couch watching a few dvd's on my own.

I have been feeling sorry for myself because I ate a bunch of donuts and an icecream over a whole weekend. In perspective it's not much. And in the long term scheme of things, what I am trying to do now - lose 50lbs - it's forgivable. As long as I get back on track and give myself a good swift kick up the bum.

And this morning when I hopped on the scale and it read 189.8 I felt like my new habits of portion control and moderate food choices have paid off. My dedication in my daily life is working and in the long term my little period of junk will not matter.